Reshmi

*I am from India and I really don’t know how to describe myself in a
non-haphazard way. I am still trying to construct and deconstruct myself.I
was in Envisage Part I and I am so happy that I was. I found amazing
friends. I am more comfortable with these friends than people I know for
years. I feel safe with them. I was going through a divorce last year and
these women offered me a shoulder whenever I needed. Unconditionally and
without being judgmental.

I am fiercely protective about my space and my own world. I am not
explicitly amiable and I don’t call anyone my friend. But if I do, I will
stand by them no matter what and will protect them. My reticence or attitude
is often misinterpreted as being rude. It used to hurt me at one point of
time but it doesn’t anymore. This is how I am. I am using it as a camouflage
to cover myself and in turn pick up the true friends.

I love my family very much especially my parents and I enjoy cooking for
people. I am an avid reader. I am bitten by travel bug and photography is
a hobby cum passion. I used to paint a lot using different mediums. Not many
know that anymore. In fact even I completely forgot that when I was married.
I completely forgot who I was. Thanks to that phase, I suffer from terrible
depression, immense self-loathing and a complete lack of self appreciation
and respect. And yeah an eating disorder as well. But yes things are
changing and I am trying to pick up my lost pieces.

I love kids and hope to have my own someday.Kids brighten my days and keep
me going. At times I have these extremely opposite phases when I am fiercely
creative and can go on writing/reading/painting/cooking/working for hours
without sleep. And after that all of a sudden I am the laziest bear you have
seen.

Ok enough about me. *** yawns *** I don’t believe I actually wrote so much
about myself..

P.S. I see many new faces in Envisage 2009. I am really looking forward to
know you all.

Love from India,

Reshmi.