Sarah 262/365

In the waiting area at my therapists this afternoon. It's good that my
appointment was today because Robert called me last night and it fucked with
my facade of calm pretty effectively. The no contact order is still intact,
I declined the call. Not because I didn't want to speak with him, I really
wanted to. I wanted to hear his voice. It was so close, just to hear it I
think would have felt good. I declined it for Eli. If Robert had somehow
gotten caught calling me, he would have caused the annihilation of any deal
he has in the works, which in turn would mean that it would be even longer
until my little boy could hug his Daddy, and he really needs a hug.

I don't understand why he would risk that.